Amazing really, to see the time go by..like the sun on a winter's day it seems like no time at all has passed since the dawn of last year. It's three o'clock on a Saturday and already the sun is hidden behind the trees, the shadows are long and lonely looking, and we are warm and quiet at my in-law's closed up house (they are south for the Christmas season). It's a blessing to have somewhere to go that isn't home, a house with none of the demands of home, and yet not a hotel, not an impersonal, lonely place of strangers and weary travelers. Here in this home that is not mine, I'm catching up on all the sleep I've missed through these past few nights of sub-zero temperatures and wicked wind-chills - sleeping and showering and setting resolutions (a few days late) that will come into being on Epiphany. Resolutions to sew more, buy less, pray & fast & dream & live, write, eat...
I haven't quite put my actual resolutions to writing yet, but my hopes are:
To Sew more..
at least a third of the skirts and pretty dresses I've pinned - while at the same time cleaning out the clothes I don't wear, or don't like wearing. Streamlining my wardrobe a bit and wearing the same old things less often, and with more attention to detail.
more of Yarrow's clothes as well as some of the adorable things I've seen around, like these:
To Buy Less..
because I fall into consumerism so easily!
I want to start making some of my own makeup, all my own bath products, lotions, and creams. I want to get back into baking regularly..it's a bit of a challenge in the winter with the kitchen, but I'm trying to set a schedule for myself, regular breads and house-cakes, and healthy, good things to eat that aren't just on the stove-top.
and to clear out all the extras..the things I don't love, need, or cherish:
Pray & Fast...
I want to grow into a person who delights in prayer and consistently fasts. I want to set up Wednesdays and Fridays as days of particular fasting for particular intentions, and I want my days to fall into mini-seasons of prayer: We do the Angelus in the morning, but I'd like to do it at noon, and my good friend from college and I are committing to do the Divine Mercy with and for each other daily..a sort of long-distance community of prayer I'd love to welcome others to join, after all, prayer doesn't really dilute down, it grows with the numbers.
Regular confession is something I'm working on as well..monthly is the goal, I've failed for December, but January is a new month, a new year, and a new chance to heal.
I've decided - thanks to the ladies of Soul Gardening Journal for the idea - to dedicate 2014 to The Virgin of the Passion (another title of Our Lady of Perpetual Help)..I'm trying to think of a good way to keep this dedication going throughout the year..perhaps with a new tattoo??
|not this as a tattoo..something more symbolic..obviously..|
I want to indulge my dreams this year, without fear and without negativity..I'm going to fill my house with dream-flowers and sleep with basil under my head, then wake and walk toward the dreams with my eyes wide open...
walking toward dreams means living life fully awake, rejoicing in the goodness, mourning the sorrowful, and letting each moment have it's chance to color the world I see..
in other words..send all the letters I keep meaning to write, play in the sunshine and in the rain; let Yarrow's love of walking slowly down the lane to collect all the rocks and leaves and stones, and snowflakes she can along with the mail delight me instead of frustrating me with it's slowness..
my heart out..send out those poems, finish that story, journal like I always intend to..have a record of the year that I can reflect on - with stories, poems, daily things, pictures, and quotes all mashed up into books that belonged to each and every day.
Read the books I've piled up for reading..and write my thoughts on each one..even if it's nothing more than.."no! no no no no no no o o o"
..Real food. Not too much. Mostly plants.. (Thank you Michael Pollan).
pretty basic...but I think it'll end up being a bit of a challenge. I'm looking forward to getting our eating back to something that compliments our way of life better, and is less lazy, less sugary, less gluttonous than it has been.
Happy 2014 everyone!
What are your goals for this fresh new year? I'd love it if you shared!