|A pot of detox tea (my new addiction, sadly) and a bit of the book Seth made.|
This is the week of toddler drama. Yarrow's will has taken on a determined edge these days - and her will is insomnia. Tantrums filled yesterday: 12-3 yesterday (yup, all three hours -that's why she threw up), and then again at night, for only a little over an hour, but it was late and I was tired. I'm not obsessive about sleep. She doesn't always nap, but she does always 'rest' in some way, and screaming fits on the floor don't count as rest in my book - for either of us.
When she finally fell asleep, it was the sort punctuated by shuttering little sobs - the sort that breaks my heart. Thankfully, I'd gotten my "sorry hit mama. Sorry yell mama." before she passed out, and there was peace between us when she woke. Poor little misery. How do you work with your intense little one to help them rest for naps and at night. (nota bene: we don't do the whole 'cry it out' thing, her sobbing was with me, except when I'd tell her "I'm going to feed the pigs" or "I'm going to check the oven". I find crying it out alone and unresponded to unkind. It's also not an option designed for tiny houses.)
Retreat Cake #3
Dormition Berry Cake
1 3/4 c. flour (I used a mix of 2 parts white to 1 part whole wheat)
2 1/2 tsp. baking powder
1/2 c. butter
1/2 c. turbinado
1/4 c. honey
1/2 c. milk
zest from 3 limes
1 c. fresh blackberries
Cream butter, turbinado, and honey until smooth. Beat in eggs, then add lime zest. In a seperate bowl, sift flour and baking powder, then stir in berries. Add flour mixture to wet ingredients gently, and right along with the milk. Fold mixture together and pour/spoon into a grease 7" or 8" cake pan. Bake at 350 for about 35 minutes, or until golden and springing, but firm when pressed. cut into squares and serve piled on a plate, with spicy, roses in bloom and dollops of whipped cream.
Happy Dormition of Mary! We celebrated with cake and meat and God celebrated with sunshine. Hopefully He likes the whole 'blue sky and bright light' effect and will let us keep it for a while.
The hardest part about nap-time is still Luba, despite Yarrow's Will. Yesterday, Luba decided that right after Yarrow'd fallen asleep was the best time to greet every animal, wood demon, and imaginary monster on the property. She was loud and so enthusiastic until I ran outside and emptied a watering can on her. When she started up again five minutes later, I gave up and brought her in. Inside the house, Luba's favorite game is to find Sleeping Yarrow and shake her collars right beside her. Again and again and again. They're a team, Yarrow and Luba - fighting sleep together.
We're over-run with grass-hoppers. So much so that when I surprised a huge garter snake in the kitchen, my first thought was "will he eat my grass-hoppers?!" I wanted to catch one and try to feed it to the snake, but he escaped. I'm thrilled with every toad I meet, and we've taught Yarrow that grass-hoppers are not friends (they're joined by slugs and the huge, ugly wood beetles in the Not Friend Bug category..everything else is greeted by a happy "Hi friend Bug."
This week it has been particularly difficult to keep to the cleanse. I was tempted again and again by the memory of the oh so good Ben & Jerry's ice cream friends brought out for my birthday. It was so good I started to doubt my commitment to not support Ben & Jerry's..I mean, maybe they don't support Planned Parenthood..I looked it up last night - hoping to use this week's last few dollars to buy a pint for the Dormition. But then I saw this and this and this..no more Ben & Jerry's for me. Which is too bad..if Hagen-Daz supports abortion too, please just don't mention it to me..
Ok, I looked it up..and according to the internet, Hagen Daz does support Planned Parenthood..REALLY! But it's an old list, maybe they don't anymore..I'll look into it! I'm either going to get really skinny on this whole "no good ice-cream EVER" diet, or I'm going to eat it and feel disgusted with myself for supporting a completely unnecessary company (Ice cream is not a life or death item, really..is it??) that choses to spend it's money in a morally repugnant way. What do you all do about these conundrums? I don't shop at Wal-mart (too many morally problematic issues to mention!), Starbucks (they support Planned Parenthood & are very pushy about their problematic views on marriage), Ben & Jerry's (see #6), and now Hagen-Daz! Ugh. So yeah, what do you do? How much do you avoid to keep away that gross feeling of "I just supported something I reject entirely for the sake of a yummy taste in my mouth..or an easy, quick stop to by a gallon of milk..or a caffeine fix?
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